I love the persistent pursuit of the Holy Spirit to conquer my heart and woo me back into His divine affection. He is a faithful Lover, speaking gently, but always truthfully. This last year, 2022, was really hard for me on a personal level. It was as if my prayers were not being answered, as if seeking the Bible for comfort was little comfort if any, and worship was just a continual search for the right song to usher in a breakthrough. But Holy Spirit loves me, pursues me. He takes the time to lead and guide and woo me. He awakens my heart to listen like one being taught… and here’s what he taught me: it’s time to come back to what it’s all about.
He started with my waning prayer life. “It’s time to come back to what it used to be” He said. In a single moment, I knew what He meant. It wasn’t about answers to prayer, or how to pray or active my faith to see mountains move. It was never suppose to be about my authority, or saying the right words the right way. I had to get back to what “prayer” was for me. And intercession too. Intercession had become reduced in my life to praying for people in need, commanding situations to change, executing the power Jesus gives the believer. That’s not how I started in Him, that’s not how I want to finish. Back to the beginning. Back to relationship. Back to remembering the reason Jesus came, and it wasn’t so I could have a powerful, mountain-moving prayer life. It was just simply so I could know Him, be in relationship with Him. Anything beyond that is just the icing, ya know? It’s not about talking to Him because I have a need, it’s about having a need just to talk to Him. May I never allow prayer to be filled with lists and agenda when I could be just being with Him, talking to Him. He’s my Lover and my Friend. He doesn’t need my list, He wants my companionship. He wants me to become like Him because I’ve been with Him, searching the Word of God to find HIM, not searching the Bible to learn how to live.
Okay, if this somehow resonates with your soul, if you are saying “yes” deep inside, we just gotta talk to Jesus ‘bout it right now, you and me with Him. If you are more like “what??”… feel free to close out now. But if something in your heart is unsatisfied with pursuing a “Christian life” that seems to be more about living a successful Christian life than it is about the life of Christ living in you, let’s talk to Him now.
Jesus, Be here, right now, with me, with whoever may be still reading this. We need You, Your Presence, Your nearness. No reading books to learn what to pray, how to get answers and move mountains could ever compare with just talking to You. Your disciples asked You to teach them how to pray, and we miss the whole point if we only think you gave them a list, or a method to follow. The first thing You said was “Our Father…” the most important thing to focus on is relationship. The second thing was just as simple, “hallowed be Thy Name”… Know You, reverence You, honor You. We need to get to know You Jesus. Not about You, it goes deeper. Not about what You taught, it goes way deeper. We need to know You. Too often we read the Word in search of something “more than” just You. The danger with that is how easy it becomes to search for “other than” just You. We search for answers to our problems, direction on how to live, even promises You’ve given, and totally miss You in the process; forgive us. Forgive us for being impressed by answered prayers so much that we start trying to reproduce what we did the next time we pray. Forgive us for assuming that knowing what You’ve promised could replace the excellence of simply knowing You and letting the promise take care of itself. Forgive us for reading the Word in search of instruction on our own lives when we could be searching for how You reveal Yourself within the pages of the book.
Consume us Holy Spirit with a longing to be in Your Presence more than we long for the results of being there. Turn us around. Redirect us. Change us because we’ve been in Your Presence; don’t leave us satisfied to just seek You for a change. Remind us and teach us of things too lofty for us to know. Do what only You can do. Take us to the secret place, the inner chamber, beyond all that seems right to a man and is only found in intimacy with the Beloved. We love You, teach us, now, how to be IN LOVE WITH You. In the precious Name of Jesus, amen.
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